Chapter 7. Saturday 25 March 1972.
That
morning Simon found me in the canteen eating a full army breakfast.
“Good
morning.” He sat down, he only had a
cup of tea “I’ll get you settled in at number 37 today.”
“I think
I need to go to Castlederg bus depot, I just feel someone may ask me about my
last depot.” I looked at Simon for agreement.
“Yes,
busmen will be interested where you have come from.” I carried on eating, pleased with myself.
"I
think you should go and see some of your relations.” Simon let this sink in. “They give you credence.” I chewed my toast.
The
thought of my Grandmother’s house, with that smell of poverty, that smell of
lentils and those worn out carpets. I knew he was right, so I nodded.
The rest
of the day was spent travelling. Castlederg was small, but even so had a bus
depot. We had a pint in one of the pubs, my first chance to talk to a local.
Then we made our way to Derry for a quick spin round the town. I was reading
the maps which had areas coloured to represent the various religions in the
area.. Protestant, Catholic and mixed. Then we went back down the A6, back to
Belfast.
We went
into No. 37 Mount Pottinger Road, which had its front door on Madrid Street for
some strange reason, but it was above the Post Office on Mount Pottinger Road,
so that was the address. Directly opposite was the Police Station. At each end
there were massive steel clad Sangers and you could just make one out on the
roof. My flat was clean to a point and it had all the things I would need. I
was glad to see a TV in the corner. I put the kettle on and realised that I had
not done any shopping for myself.
“Why not
go down and introduce yourself to the landlord, he owns the shop
downstairs.” Simon went into his pocket.
“No, I
have money.”
The
doorbell made a loud pinging noise as I entered. It was the old fashioned type
of shop where you asked for everything you wanted, whilst you stood on the
other side of the counter. It had a small area glassed off, the Post Office, A
large closed sign hung there.
“Hi, I’m
moving in upstairs.” He was a big Asian
man and I got a shock when he opened his mouth, his accent was as thick as
mine.
“Sure, no
problem.” He smiled at me. “It’s been empty since February since some
Pikey did a runner. I had to decorate from top to bottom.”
I ordered
all the things I needed and paid him with the money Mack had made me sign for.
I went
upstairs with my little load of shopping. I realised that this was my first
home, just for me.
“Do I
need to keep receipts?” I looked at
Simon as I passed into the kitchenette, he did not answer straight away, so I
told him about the money Mack had given me.
“I’m not
sure.” We didn’t mention it again.
He showed
me a hidden phone in the bedroom; he peeled back the carpet and lifted two
newly sawn floorboards and there was the phone. There was no dial for ringing
numbers just a single button. He pressed it and was answered straight away.
“I’m just
testing this line.” Simon told the
listener. I could hear the other person.
“Clear as
a bell Sir.” Having made contact and
ensuring it was fully functional, he replaced the boards and carpet.
I carried
on looking round the flat. The bathroom was small and the toilet was down some
steep wooden stairs, but at least it was an inside toilet, so many of them were
out in the cold back yards in Belfast.
That
night I stayed in Holywood Barracks. On the Sunday, we started late. We walked
around Belfast and had Sunday lunch in the Europa Hotel, Simon paid. Then we
went down my memory lane visiting places which I only vaguely remembered.
Outside
my old house, we were gathering too much attention, so we made a quick exit. My
school, it looked so small now, had a burnt out car outside, half on the
pavement.
The
corner shop, which in my childhood was an Aladdin’s cave, was just a dirty old
shop, the outer windows boarded up with signs pasted on saying “Open for
business.”
“Do you
want to see your Grandmother?” I shook
my head. I was not quite ready for that. We made our way back to camp.
Simon had
other people to look after, so when I’d collected my suitcase from the
barracks, he drove me back to No. 37. We parked the car out of sight and
quickly entered the flat.
Simon sat
for a while and we went over last minute things.
“Where
are you going to hide the mugshot book?” We looked around the flat and
eventually decided on the cupboard which housed the gas meter. If anybody searched
the house very thoroughly, I was in trouble anyway. Eventually Simon left,
saying he would talk to me in the morning on the landline. I just sat there
with the gas fire hissing and gathered my thoughts. I had never spent the night
on my own, even when my mother knew she was going on a bender, she would farm
my out to Mrs. Oxon, three doors down. I checked to see if the television was
working. It was a small portable with twist tuning, but all three channels were
clear and crisp. I finished my coffee and started to unpack, then watched the
television for the rest of the night. Every time there was a noise outside, I
jumped up to look out of the window, but otherwise I felt settled. Before I
went to bed I practiced getting to the phone quickly. I did not sleep well and
woke early. The question of the wig was beginning to worry me.
Monday 27th
March 1972.
The Army
had moved into the bus depot quite early on in the Troubles and the gate was
manned by a couple of soldiers. I showed them my letter inviting me to an
interview. They patted me down. I walked round the main building. There were
busmen and soldiers all over the depot and one of them showed me to a rickety
old stairwell leading to the top floor.
I
introduced myself to a female clerk and she gave me a form to fill in while I
waited. In the office there four women
pushing pieces of paper around, waybills, time-sheets and engineer reports.
Eventually
Mr. Jackson the depot superintendent came out of his office and invited me in.
He asked all the questions we had anticipated, and I had my answers ready. He knew he had to give me the job, but he
wanted to find out as much as possible about me.
“Well I
can only offer you three day’s training.” He peered over his glasses to see my
reaction.
“Oh that
will be plenty. I’ve been doing the same job at Castlederg.” I was feeling positive.
“And how
is Billy O’Brian?” He asked the question
I had been dreading. I sat there racking my brain to remember O’Brian.
“Oh he’s
always on about retirement, but I’m sure he’ll be taken out of there in a
box.” I could feel the sweat running
down my back. Jackson just laughed.
“Right
then, you start on Wednesday.” He jumped
up to open the door. “Doris, fix Mr. Deery up with a temporary bus pass, he
starts Wednesday, transferred from Castlederg Depot.” He shook my hand and closed the door.
The
office staff looked me up and down. They had not started anyone for over a
year, jobs were hard to come by. They were curious.
Doris did
all the paper work, temporary employee’s bus pass, public service badge,
uniform chit, pay records, and timetables. I was feeling relieved as she gave
me instructions as to what to expect.
She sent
me off to the clothing store. I was issued with two pairs of trousers, two
shirts, one dust jacket, one tie, an overcoat and a hat which I didn’t have to
wear. I went round to the cashing-in office. Men were clocking on and off as
the shifts were changing, so the cash clerk was not too happy about issuing me
with a locker and a ticket machine, but eventually this was done. Like any
other work place where men know each other well, the banter went on.
“Hey
Billy.” One of the conductors, who was
cashing in at the end of his shift, shouted across the office, “You know that clippie from the Newtownards
depot?”
“Aye the
one that shaves twice a day.” Billy
knew exactly which woman he was talking about.
“Aye,
well she’s left her husband and run off with a barmaid from The Kings Arms.”
“The
dirty fucking cow.” The two men carried
on their comments with other men, making occasional remarks about the woman. I
noticed one of my target men come in. I had only seen photographs of him, but
there was no mistaking him, Tommy O’Neil had just walked in. He was the union
convener for the depot, but most of all he was the commander of ‘C’ coy. IRA
East Belfast. I could feel the power and hatred, and so did the men in the
office. You always knew when you were in the presence of a sociopath. Everybody
continued to cash up or clock on; nobody made eye contact with O’Neil. I busied
myself with my ticket machine but I was keeping an eye on him, without staring.
The man walked over to the cash clerk, suddenly the whole atmosphere changed.
“Clock me
off Sam.” O’Neil handed his money over.
The cash
clerk deferred. He counted the money quickly. This gave me a chance to look
carefully at O’Neil. So this was the man who ordered killings, bombings and
still had over forty men under his command. The exact strength of the IRA was
always hard to judge, active, passive, people who just made the numbers up.
There was a huge sense of relief when O’Neil walked out of the office. I was
excited, I had made a direct hit and I had not even started the job. I wanted
to get back and report, but I knew that if I did that, I would be stuck in the
flat until the next day, so I walked over the Albert Bridge and into town. I
spent the next few hours riding around on the buses. I needed to learn the bus
routes and know the layout of the city as well as possible.
It was a
great idea. On the buses you can keep an eye out for everyone without raising
any suspicion, observe, watch and gather nice low level intelligence to report
back. I was feeling much better. The day had gone right to plan.
I got
home late in the afternoon and started to get the flat clean, this was my army
training kicking in. Simon came bang on time, but I still jumped a mile when
the doorbell rang.
“How did
it go?” Simon was smiling.
“You are
not going to believe this.” I could not
wait to tell him my news. “I saw Tommy
O’Neil. He came in the office while I was there.” I wanted Simon to congratulate me, but he
remained calm. He was pleased, pleased that I was enthusiastic, pleased that I
had been listening and pleased that I had some sort of early success already.
“When do
you start the job?” Simon was watching
me, assessing me.
“Wednesday,
very early, but I’ve already been out on the buses to have a look around with
my free bus pass.” I showed him my uniform, PSV badge, pass. I was like a child
showing someone his Christmas presents.
“We may
as well go back to the barracks.” I packed my washing gear and some clean
clothes in the brown paper bag from my shopping trip down stairs and we
switched off the fire and left.
Wednesday
29th March 1972.
I got
back to No. 37 at eleven thirty on Tuesday night. I had to be up early, so went
straight to bed. I didn’t really sleep well.
I arrived
at the depot at five thirty in the morning, wearing my smart new uniform. It
was drizzling. What was strange was the number of vigilantes still on the streets,
watching everything and the army watching them. There were men on doorsteps,
standing on corners, hands in pockets, scrutinizing everything that moved. The
busmen were largely ignored, as they made their way into the depot.
Buses
were moving onto the streets going to their various routes to start the day.
I clocked on, Denis, the duty clerk, handed me
the running board, my timetable for the day. “You’ve been placed with George
Megahey, I’ll let you know when he comes in.”
I made
myself busy checking my ticket machine and filling out my waybill, but all the
time quietly looking around. George arrived with four minutes to spare before
we were due on the road.
“Hello
Denis, clock me on.”
Denis
pointed to me and told George that he had got a trainee. His smiled. “I like it, I like it, some other bugger can
run up and down the stairs.” He came
over to me and shook my hand. He was about mid fifties, greying hair, short,
with nicotine stains on his right hand, but there was a relaxed air about him.
“I’ve been
transferred from Castlederg.” I said as
an opening line, but he was more interested in how little he had to show me.
“So
you’ve been on the buses before?” He
checked my paper work over and pointed out that I had left off the duty number.
We strolled over to the garage and found the driver, Danny Orr, doing his early
morning checks.
“Hey
Danny, I’ve got a trainee.” George was
beaming.
Danny
shook my hand and jumped into the cab and the next thing, we were out of the
depot and making our way over the Albert Bridge, passing the markets and down
to the bus station.
The rest
of the day flew by. I was being shown fare stages, routes and given all manner
of information to do with the job. It’s an interesting life, busily moving
people from one place to another and there’s a feeling of achievement at the
end of the shift.
“Are you
coming for a pint?” George asked me
while we were cashing in. It was only one thirty and I was never a big drinker,
I just couldn't handle the stuff. But would I just go home and stay there till
my next shift I asked myself, or should I start to integrate with my work
mates? I found myself agreeing.
The
shifts were changing, men were clocking on and off, the cash office was
bubbling. I noticed that one of my key target men, a young Catholic called
Johnny O’Neil the son of Tommy O’Neil was clocking on. I logged it into my
memory, ready for the night’s report.
I drank
shandy much to the derision of George and Danny, who after years of practise,
could drink for all Ireland.
“Hell, he’s
a Prod, I’m a Catholic, but we don’t let things like that get in the way.” Danny was filling me in. “We’ve known each other for years, but I
don’t need to know where he prays.” He
lifted his beer and took a long draught. “But there are plenty around here who
do.”
Last
orders were called at three; George and Danny got in another couple of pints
and sank them fast. Even though I had only been drinking shandy, I went home
with my head spinning.
They
wandered off in the opposite direction to me. I just wanted to go home to
sleep.
Simon was
in the flat when I got to No. 37 and while I was having a coffee, I gave him
all my information gathered that day.
“Johnny
O’Neil came in to clock on, God he’s an evil looking bastard.” Simon already knew this.
He had the
local mugshot book. “Look through this
lot.” We went though them but I had not
seen anybody else out of the book, but it helped to refresh my memory.
The next
morning I got to the depot thirty minutes early. This gave me time to stand
around and watch the crew members as they clocked on. As usual, George and
Danny bowled in with just minutes on the clock to get on the road. George
checked my paperwork, off we went. As it happens, we had a long tea break, this
was quite common. Good rest periods were allocated on most duties, thanks to
the Union rules. The canteen was at the
back of the depot; it was higher than the rest of the building to save ground
floor space. I had to buy the teas. It was a rule that the conductor would
always pay for the tea. Generally that was because he was the one who could
make a few bob, by short changing or not giving a ticket out for a short
journey, whilst the driver kept a watchful eye out for inspectors. At this
point I had no idea how to fiddle, but they assumed I did.
George
and Danny started a card school. I was sitting watching them and looking around
at the canteen, which was a scruffy place. There was a lot of litter on the
floor and the table was wiped with what looked like a floor cloth; everything
had a fine layer of grease. The pool table caught my eye, I loved pool. I spent
all my leisure time, back in Germany playing and I took the game very
seriously.
There
were two men playing; they did not have a clue. I chalked my name on the board,
so I would play the winner. Eventually game ended and I went to set up the
balls. We had just introduced ourselves,
when Johnny O’Neil came in. I did not turn to look at him as he swaggered over
to the counter. The local pool rules were spelled out to me. The game started.
Now I’m the sort of player who wants to win, big style. I want to crush my
opponent, which was not hard in this case. Throughout the game, Johnny was
watching me. First I beat the winner, and then eight balled the next man. It
was a nice table, it ran smooth and the balls were accurate, the cues were kept
in good order. I was enjoying myself. All the time, Johnny's eyes were on me as
I demolished the two no-hopers.
“I’ll
give you a game, these fucking wankers couldn’t hit a cows arse with a
banjo.” Johnny was putting his name down
on the board. I wondered how close
Intelligence wanted me to get. I was smiling inside, but I didn't show it.
He was
good, but erratic, which was how I liked it. I was making out that it was
beginner’s luck, just having a good day. It helped to wind him up.
“You’re a
lucky bastard, so you are.” I put on my
soft face, as Johnny put in another tanner, even though it was not his turn,
nobody complained. I won again, he was getting angry and I was really enjoying
the situation. We had four games and he won the last one. He played well and had started to give me
some respect.
“Come on
young’un.” George was letting me know it
was time to get back to work.
“Go on
fuck off, now I’ve started to win.”
Johnny wanted more but I had to go. What a good story to tell Simon. The
rest of the shift flew past.
When I
got back to No. 37, I pulled up the boards and lifted the phone out and pressed
the button.
‘It’s
Deery here.’ I did not recognize the
voice that answered.
“I’ll put
you through to Captain Ellis.” There was
a moment, then a click.
“Captain
Ellis.” I recognized the plummy vowels
of Ellis.
“Sir it’s
Deery, I’m just using my phone for the first time,” I explained.
“Oh well
Lt. Adder’s not here at the moment, do you have anything to report.” I went on to tell him about the pool games
with Johnny O’Neil and that everything else was going fine.
“Well
done Deery, I’ll fill Simon in when he gets back.”
“OK
sir.” I hung up and replaced the boards.
In the
office, Ellis made a note in the large log, in his meticulous handwriting.
Wednesday
26 April 1972. Deery has made a good start, contact with John O’Neil C Coy E.
Belfast, settled in well. Very promising.
We had a
setback, Edwards has been sacked from Garson’s Bakery, and so he will be posted
to Londonderry where we believe we can get him a job with the council. We have
some influence in that area.
McDonnell
has settled in well at the Coach House in Strabane, and has volunteered for
extra shifts at weekends, but maybe having a fling with one of the barmaids
(one to keep an eye on).
BBC News, 31st April 1972
..A British soldier died
this morning, after being shot in the Donegal Road area of Belfast four days
ago...
The three
days of training were over on Friday and George and Danny took me for a pint.
“I see
you’ve been put with old Jerry Mason, well he won’t throw you around.” They
both laugh. George continued, “He’s never been out of third gear for five
years.” We drank the afternoon away.
Saturday
1st April 1972.
The next
morning it was cold and raining but I had gone in early to make sure I had all
the fare stages and other things in my head. I wanted to be ready for my first
day with no guidance. I was reading the notice board, when I felt a little poke
in the back.
“You’ll
not be so lucky next time.” I turned
round to find Johnny O’Neil scowling at me. It was still bothering him. He had
not been turned over for a long time on the pool table.
“What
time's your relief?” He was trying to
see which duty I was on. I looked at the running board.
“We are
off from ten thirty till eleven forty seven.” I replied. Johnny smiled.
“Well,
I’ll be ready for you. I’m the spare conductor today and will be warming up all
morning.” He had a strange smile, the
type you are instinctively wary of when you’re a child. This is not supposed to
happen. I’m supposed to just watch from the sidelines.
Denis the
cash clerk was calling me over.
“Jerry
this is the new boy, he’s been transferred from Castlederg.” Jerry looked round
and took me in with one glance.
“Just
keep the kids quiet on the school runs and get the teas in on relief and you’ll
do for me.” He walked out into the yard
to find his bus.
They were
right, Jerry never went over twenty five miles an hour, not that it made much
difference to me. We did a workman’s special to Harland & Wolf, got a cup
of tea at the canteen at Johnson’s metal works, and then a scholars’ run. The
little bastards knew I didn’t have much of a clue, but I didn’t care, I knew I
was not going to make a career out of this.
We were
back at the depot at ten thirty, and Johnny O’Neil was sitting with his dad. I
was not sure I want to be this close to these two evil men, but I smiled as I saw
them.
“Two teas
and a sausage sarnie please.” The lady served me quickly but I was not in a
hurry to sit down; I wanted time to think.
I sat with Jerry.
“Hey.” Johnny was waving me over. I didn’t want to
be that close but the pressure was on. I
took my sandwich and tea and sat with them.
“So
you’ve come from Castlederg?” I nodded
at Tommy O’Neil. “Well, I’ll have to
send off for your union records. Do you still pay your dues at that branch?” I nearly choked on my sausage; my mouth went
dry. At no point had anyone thought of my union records. The buses was a closed
shop, you had to be a member of the union to be on the buses. Tommy was looking
right into my soul, I lifted my tea to my mouth, just to give myself a few
seconds to think.
“Yes,
fully paid up member.” I smiled, but my
hands were shaking so I hid them under the table.
“I’ll
bring in my card tomorrow.” What else
could I say? He gave me a form to fill in while Johnny was setting up the balls
on the pool table. I was glad that I to get away from Tommy. We started playing
pool, Johnny was not giving anything away, so the game was slow and tactical. I
ground out three wins. All the time Johnny was getting upset.
“You are
the luckiest bugger alive.” He was not
used to losing but my mind was on the union records. I needed to get a message
to Simon quickly.
“No more
for me.” I put the cue away. Johnny was
furious. He wanted to win, to prove that nobody could make a fool out of him. I
wanted to get to the phone under the floorboards.
“No
that’s enough for me.” I smiled and made
my way to the door. Johnny came running after me and caught up with me at the
top of the stairs.
“What are
you doing tonight?” He had his hands on
my shoulder. I slowly removed his hands.
“Not a
lot really, why?”
“We can
go to the club. It’s a better table there, come on, it's Saturday night.” I was a bit shocked, but I didn’t have an
excuse so I agreed.
“I’ll
knock for you at seven.” I was off, I
had fourteen minutes to get to the phone, tell Simon and get back to the depot.
I ran all the way and stumbled up the stairs of No.37 and into the bedroom. The
phone was again answered quickly.
“Get me
Simon.” It seemed like ages before he answered, but probably only took a matter
of seconds.
“Ellis
here.” I started to babble. “Sir, they are going to get my union records
from Castlederg.” He was silent for a
few seconds, “Hmm….” Then there was silence. Every second seemed a minute. “Sir I’ve only got minutes to get back to the
depot, I must go now.” I slammed the
phone down, put the boards back and ran like the wind. Jerry was standing at
the depot gates, but I got there on time.
We got
re-routed due to a suspect bomb, but time flew for me.
As soon
as I got back to No 37, I was up the stairs and on the phone. Simon answered as
soon as I asked for him.
“Yes, we
forgot about the union records.” He said
calmly. “The union convener at Castlederg is ex-army protestant. He assures us
that you will have two months records of full union dues, when the request
comes through and we will get the union card to you by tonight.” I was feeling much better, but just how many
other things had we forgotten to cover?
There
were still a few hours till seven, so I got some kip.
Johnny knocked very loudly on the door. I
heard it clearly but I was ready for him.
We walked
to the club, not the quickest way, Johnny didn't want to go though Protestant
streets. Along the way, the vigilantes were out early that night, and most of
them acknowledged Johnny.
The club
was already quite full when we arrived and there were men playing pool. We took
a seat and waited our turn. I studied everyone but not openly staring, just
using the technique that Mack had taught me. How had I got myself into this
position. I was supposed to be lying low and there I found myself in the lion’s
den, surrounded by all sorts of God knows who. I didn’t know whether I’d done
well or I’d stepped over the mark. Would they pull me out or what? I knew I was
out of my depth, but didn’t know whether I should just keep mouth shut and
carry on.
Johnny
went on to the pool table first. It gave me time to look around the club. I
started making mental notes. I had already seen two familiar faces, who were on
the wanted list and two from the report list.
The
winner stays on the table, so Johnny had to win so that we could play. Johnny
lost and I could see his pride was hurt.
I had watched the other man play, so I identified his weakness whilst he
did not know my game.
“Robert,
he’s a lucky bugger and he’ll clear up if you give him a chance.” Johnny filled the other guy in. I was
thinking it might be a good time to lose; maybe he’d lose interest in me, if I
played a duffer’s game, but the fighting spirit got inside me as soon as we
started to play. We shook hands at the end of the game and as the night wore,
on people lost interest in the pool table. There was bingo and a singer came on
at nine, rebel songs were going down the best, she knew her audience. But
Johnny and I played on. When he won, you could see the jubilation in his face
but I didn’t let that happen too often. I knew he held me in high esteem, for
no other reason than I could beat him at pool. He didn't even know me. At the
end of the night, I deliberately missed the black. I did this because I knew
him to be a sociopath and I had to walk home with him. It worked, he was happy
and on the way started to sing. We were
stopped by an army patrol and pushed against the wall. I gave them a bit of
mouth. “Fuck off sunshine.” The squaddie made me lean over even further. He
knew this would start to hurt pretty quickly but we were kept waiting whilst
our names and addresses were checked out.
Mine took forever, because I’d not been there long.
“Spell
that again.” The radio operator had
mispronounced my name. “Delta, Echo, Echo, Romeo, Yankee.” My arms were killing me, so I tried to stand
up a bit more upright.
“Don’t
fucking move son.” The soldier holding me had a baton pushed into my back and
they were very edgy, but this did not help my arms, which were starting to give
way. I moved again, this time the soldier brought me down with a head lock, my
face caught the ground and I started to struggle. I was wondering how it had
come to this, but my mouth said “You son of a whore, fuck off to where you came
from.”
This was
a bad mistake. A Land Rover was called up and I was whisked off to Mount
Pottinger Police Station. I didn’t know what had happened to Johnny. They let
me go at four in the morning; the 'reasonable force' showing as blue marks all
over my back and legs. I got straight on the phone, blood still on my lips.
“Get me
Simon Adder.”
“Hello?” The sound of Simon’s voice calmed me down, he
said he would be there soon and he was. I suddenly realised that this is what
it was going to be like.
“I’ve
been lifted by the army.” I still felt
sorry for myself. “I have to be at work
in two hours.” Simon listened, while I
moaned on, “I’m black and blue.” But
then I remembered the four sightings and told him about them. Simon took the details down and before I fell
asleep, he gave me my union card.
“I’ll
catch an hour’s sleep and phone you after my shift tomorrow.” I looked at the alarm clock. “No, later
today.”
Chapter 8.
I was not
due to clock on until five past six, so I did get some sleep, but in the
morning light the bruises on my back and legs were spectacular and I limped to
work. The day passed over with no real happenings, but I did hand in my union
card to Tommy O’Neil. At the end of my shift,
I made my way to No. 37. I took some
aspirins, which I bought from the shop downstairs, and sat looking at the
Police Station over the road. I realised
I was looking on them as the enemy, looking out of their Sangers, dominating
the scene. It was a strange feeling. Then I went straight to bed, planning to
sort out the reports later.
I was
woken by banging on the front door. I rushed to pull on my pants and then
walked down the stairs.
“Who’s
that?” I had a frog in my throat.
“It’s
me.” Johnny was talking in one of those
loud whispers. Johnny had come to find
out what had happened, and he was very impressed with the bruises. All I could think of was Simon suddenly
phoning or worse, appearing.
I put the
kettle on as I told Johnny what had happened.
“Four in
the morning and will you look at that.”
I was showing him my legs. The bruising look good enough to get a load
of sympathy, but Johnny was not the sympathetic type. He did, though, like
other people to hate the army as much as he did.
“Well,
we’ll get them one of these days.” Johnny
made a pistol with his finger and pointed it at me and fired. There was a quiet
knock on the door; I leapt out of the chair and sprinted down the stairs. I did
not ask who it was, but just opened the door. Simon tried to walk in, but I put
my hand forcibly against his chest as he walked up the steps. At first he was
surprised.
“No, they
don’t live here anymore.” Simon nodded and walked away. I had said this more
for the benefit of the person who upstairs than for Simon and closed the door
noisily. I ran up the stairs and straight into the kitchenette and finished off
the tea.
“Do you
want a biscuit?”
“Yes.”
“How many
sugars do you take?”
“Two.”
“Who was
that?”
“It was
just someone asking for the people who used to live here.” I desperately wanted to change the subject.
“What
happened to you last night?” Not that I
gave a toss, but I managed to feign interest in how the night had ended for
Johnny, after I was shuffled away.
“They’d
had their fun, so I was soon on my way.”
He took a drink of tea and looked at me, “I went straight home and told
my dad.”
“You
still live with your parents?” I forgot,
not everyone has to get out as soon as they can walk.
Looking
hurt, Johnny replied, very defensively, “Of course I do.”
I wanted
to get rid of Johnny.
“Do you
want to go out tonight?” Johnny asked.
I was
knackered and bruised and I wanted to get to the barracks, not just make a
phone call report.
“No way,
I’m black and blue. Do you want to beat a man who’s wounded and anyway I’m on
an early start tomorrow.”
Johnny
finished his tea and left with my promise that I would give him a chance for
revenge soon.
I was on
the phone before Johnny had got to the end of the street.
“Tell
Simon I’m coming in.” That’s all I said, when my call was eventually answered.
I got the
number eighty six bus to Holywood. I did not use my staff pass and the bus
conductor did not know me, but I still got off two stops after the barracks,
preferring to walk back, rather than get off nearer to the barracks. I had no
ID so had to wait at the guardhouse until Simon came to identify me.
As we
walked back to the offices I gave him all the details as to what had
occurred. Simon was just listening and
calculating the effect of these changes of events.
Captain
Ellis, joined us in Room seven.
“So
you’ve bonded with a known IRA sympathizer and you have not even been in
position for a week!” He looked pleased.
I had mixed feelings.
“Obviously
we don’t want you to rush things.” Ellis
could afford to be relaxed he didn’t have to be out there. “But to be close to
some one the likes of O’Neil, it’s a big plus.”
He looked
from Simon to me. Simon was trying to look encouraging.
“It could
take years to get to this position again, you’ve done really well lad.” But they could see it was lying heavily on
me.
“I do my
best.” I smiled weakly and was given no
further instructions, other than to keep doing what I was doing.
I made my
way to the canteen. I thought I might as well get a proper meal while I was
there. The cook sergeant wanted to know who I was; my hair was getting long as
were my side boards. I explained I was MI and it would be foolish to carry an
identity card.
I walked
back up a few stops to get the bus home and was in bed by nine thirty.
Wednesday 19 April 1972 BBC News.
A British soldier was
shot today in the Lower Falls area of Belfast, while on foot patrol, his next
of kin has been informed...
In the
OP’s room at Holywood barracks, the radio operator turned round and announced
“One shot Willy has done it again.” All the men in the office knew it meant
another mother would be getting a visit from the Army.
I had
done a week of early and a week of late shifts and was well into my second week
of early shifts. Life was settling down and a pattern was evolving. Johnny and I
played pool every Wednesday and Saturday night, plus we got a few games at work
when our paths crossed, which was quite often, because we were on the same
shift. One of the really good things which I had not even considered. I
received two wage packets. I was allowed to keep my bus wage and the army paid
my wages into the bank in Germany and they paid my rent. I felt rich. Simon
said “Well you need money to live, don’t you?”
I didn’t think he knew how much I could have earned, with a little bit
of overtime, so I kept schtum.
It was
amazing how much I saw on the buses. I kept writing the reports and spotting
things which army patrols never saw. Both Protestants and Catholics kept a
close eye on the army – when they were planning anything. The problem was how
slowly my information got to those who need to know, but it was better than
nothing.
We were
diverted regularly on the bus route because of a suspect bomb here, a demo
there, sometimes even gun fights occurred. A lot of this was not even newsworthy.
Jerry the
driver just plodded on, nothing fazed him. He had been a merchant sailor in the
war and lost a lot of friends one way or another, so this little tiff didn’t
worry him. Most of his stories started “I remember the time” and he was a great
raconteur, remembering dates, names and places in great detail. I asked him
once, when we were standing at the terminus waiting for the return journey,
whether he ever expected to die whilst he was in fighting.
“Oh yes,
every time we left port, I used to write my last letter to my mother. She
couldn’t face opening them until I was back, I never understood that.” He looked into the distance, miles away,
remembering the distant conflict.
On
Saturday, when Johnny knocked, I was wearing a new shirt and feeling very
flash.
“Electric
blue, you look like a Belisha beacon.”
Johnny
was not impressed with my new shirt. I’d also bought myself a two piece pool
cue and carrying case, which I hoped would improve my pool.
“Just
wait until this little beauty starts to talk.” I was winding Johnny up, he was
inspecting the cue while we walked to the club and as he was putting it back in
the case, a foot patrol soldier came around the corner. We carried on walking,
but the section leader decided that we perhaps might be carrying some sort of
weapon. I could see it coming and they may have checked us out even if we
hadn’t had the cue box with us, but that just tipped the balance. Why they had
to lean us against the wall and kick our feet around I don’t know, but with the
best will in the world it got us going.
“You just
leave my bollocks alone you puff.” Johnny was getting indignant at the process
and I couldn’t blame him, I felt my own temper rising.
“Have you
no home to go to?” Johnny kept up the pressure, I did not want another beating,
answered their questions.
Eventually,
we were allowed to go on our way. Johnny was furious. “Well that makes my mind up." I looked at Johnny quizzically. He said,
“I’m going to join my dad’s unit.”
“What do
you mean?” We were getting close to the
club and as we entered he said slowly, “I’m going to join the IRA.” I nearly said, that I thought he was already
a member, but managed to hold that in.
Sitting at the bottom of the club house, we
watched the other pool players as we waited our turn.
“My dad
has always expected me to take more of an active part, but until now I never
felt the need.” This information went
directly against all the intelligence reports I had studied.
“I go on
the demos and to the funerals, but not any real action, but now...,” he tapered
off, a grim look on his face.
I played
badly all night. The new cue was not doing anything for my game. There was a
subdued atmosphere to the night.
The next
day, news got to the O’Neil’s that Paddy McVeigh, a family friend, had been shot
by an under cover British Intelligence Agent, from a passing car, in the
Andersonstown part of Belfast. Johnny was away from work for six days, to mourn
the death of his friend.
I went
into Holywood for a night of R&R on the Wednesday night. Fat Brian and
Smudge were on their night off and the film Soldier Blue was showing in the
canteen. We had more than two cans that night. I slept in my bunk, which had
not been re-allocated.
I read
the reports before I went back to No. 37. A soldier, who had been shot by a
sniper two days before, was in intensive care. There were some of my reports on
the list, which made me feel proud.
Johnny
came back on the Friday, you could see some change in him and he was full of
hate, so a bit scary. We just saw each other briefly, whilst passing in the
yard, and arranged to meet up on the Saturday night.
That
Saturday, I had only just finished reporting and put the phone away, when
Johnny knocked.
“Fancy a
night in town?” He was imploring me to
go into Belfast for a pub crawl.
“No
problem mate.” I put on the electric
blue shirt and polished my shoes, while Johnny watched the TV, then we walked
through the back streets to Albert Bridge.
He was back to normal and we were chatting
away about how many girls we had been with, both exaggerating about our
exploits, as we got to the first bar.
I’m not a
big drinker, so I had to make sure that I didn’t drink too much. Bar after bar
we visited and even though ever time Johnny turned his back, or went to the
toilet, I poured some of my drink into his or any other glass near to me, I
could feel I was slowly getting drunk. I suggested we have half pints at each
bar, but Johnny ridiculed me.
“Are you
a queer?” I was shamed into drinking
more than I could take. My guard was going down. We fell all over the road on
the way back, Johnny picked me up.
“I’m
going on training exercise next week.”
I tried to comprehend this piece of information.
“Where
to?” My head was spinning but I knew
that I had to listen.
“Three
days, out in the sticks.” Johnny was
holding me steady and watching my response. I needed to look dumb; it was easy
because of the beer.
“My dad
has arranged for weapon training and I want you to come.” I could not believe what was happening. I let
myself fall to the floor, to give me time to think.
“Come on,
you hate the bastards as much as me.”
Had I been acting that well?
“I’m just
a bus conductor.” I wailed.
“We have
to make a stand.” He was really putting
the pressure on. “They need us.” I was sobering up very fast here. “I can’t be
taking time off work. I’ve only just started.”
My mind was racing, what would Simon advise me to do?
“You get
three days off next week I’ve already had a look at your duties.” He was
serious. The adrenaline was kicking in and at that moment I knew that the army
would like to have me there.
“OK, but
don’t expect me to be any good.”
He hugged
me. Here was I, having just agreed to join the IRA, standing on the streets of
Belfast, being hugged by a man who, for all the world, wants me to shoot and
maim my own side. You could not make this up.
I didn’t
report in that night, it would not have been worth it, I would have been
incoherent.
The next
morning with my tongue rasping on the top of my mouth, I spoke into the phone.
“Get me Simon.” Simon was there.
“I’ve
just joined the IRA.” There was a long
silence and after a while I explained how the night had gone and why I had
agreed to the offer.
“You need
to come in. I’ll have things ready when you get here.”
“I start
work at two thirty,” I reminded him. “I
have other things to do, besides running up to Holywood every five minutes.”
“I know,
but we still need a full report on this.”
I looked at my watch. I supposed it could be done.
“I’ll be
on the ten thirty bus.” I could get my breakfast in camp.
“No we’ll
pick you up in twenty minutes. Be at the junction of Mount Pottinger and Madrid
Street.” There was a new firmness in
his voice, which told me how important this was.
Brian was
detailed to pick me up and was a bit frosty with me. He didn’t like having to
taxi me around and I did not want to be explaining things to him, so there was
an atmosphere in the car.
“Oh, it’s
just a general reporting session,” I lied. Well could I really say that I was
about to go on an IRA training course?
“They
seemed a bit anxious, that’s all.” I
shrugged my shoulders and changed the subject.
“How are
things going with you?”
“Every
minute feels like an hour.” He was not having a good time.
I told
him that the buses were a lot more interesting than I expected. We arrived at
the camp and went straight in, no messing this time. Brian dropped me at the
door.
“See you
later.” I tried to be friendly, but I felt he saw through me.
Bloody
hell, they had brought in every Tom, Dick and Harry to listen to my report. We
were in the room at the end of the corridor, which was a bit larger. There were
seven of them, one was a half Colonel. There was an air of excitement. I still
had a hangover and still wasn’t sure I had done the right thing.
Ellis
asked the questions, everybody else just listened. I was sweating.
“Do you
think it was the beer talking?”
“No Sir,
he’d looked at my duties, so it was premeditated.”
“You know
things are going very fast here, but you have to go with the flow.” I nodded. I was ambitious and wanted to do my
best, but also knew that it would be very dangerous to continue. Everybody in
the room knew that.
At this
point, the colonel opened his mouth.
“We feel
because of the responsibility you are taking on, that you should be rewarded,
so as of today you are now Corporal.”
Not very long ago, I was a Sapper, now I had suddenly become a Corporal,
I was receiving two wages and my head was spinning.
After
every one had gone, Ellis and a tough looking man in civvies, who had not said
a word during the meeting, stayed behind. He introduced himself as Captain Lunn
of the SAS and actually shook my hand. His hand shake was firm and my hand was
wet through with sweat, but he did not appear to notice.
“We need
to go though certain things. You need to make it look like you are unfamiliar
with weapons and we need to know where the training takes place.” I nodded my head and listened as closely as I
could. Out in the corridor, the Colonel was giving instructions.
“Put Mr
Adder on this one full time, I don’t want him distracted by anything else.”
“Yes
Sir.”
“And get
the techs to bug Deery’s flat, we need to know what’s going on in there,
without his having to report it.”
“Yes
Sir.” The wheels started to turn.
Back in
the big room, Lunn gave me pointers, which were obvious, but it helped focus my
mind. I was offered coffee, to help me
concentrate. The mugshot book was out and Lunn pointed to his main targets. At
last they were finished with me.
“Do you
want a bed?”
“No sir,
I wouldn’t mind grabbing a meal, and then I’ll get back to my flat.”
It had been a long day. I could feel my
batteries running low.
“Ok, go
to the mess, get a bite to eat and we’ll organise a lift.” Ellis was patting me on the back, as I made
my way to the door.
“Well
done, Deery,” Lunn said. I felt very proud at that moment.
I
wandered out to the mess and felt the cold of the night. A heavy dew had fallen
and there were no clouds to keep the temperature up.
Ellis
sipped his coffee as he filled out his report, which then was sent directly to
The Secretary of State for Northern Ireland.
Outside
the vigilantes stood on doorsteps, men moved weapons and bombs from one safe
house to another, doors were kicked in and heavy boots stamped up stairs. It
was just one more night in the province.
Brian
came to my table with a large cup of tea and the morning paper and sat down.
“A couple
of our lads were in a gun fight last night.”
“Do I
know them?” I was happy to talk about
anything except what was happening to me.
“Yes, do
you know that fat bastard from Two Troop, Johnston?” I nodded.
“Well it
was his section, they were on patrol and all hell broke loose down on McAuley
Street, someone had a rifle and a few hand guns, shooting from an old
warehouse.” He started to chuckle. “They
ran out of ammo, didn’t hit a thing.”
He
finished off his tea and we made our way to his car. He drove me back to my
place, dropping me off in a back lane.
“Be
careful,” he said as he drove off. I went to my cold bed.
Chapter 9. Friday 28th April 1972.
My shift on
the buses went over that night without much to tell, but I was sure Jerry’s
driving was getting slower, or was I just getting impatient. When I got home to
No. 37, something was different. I sat and looked about the room. I could not
put my finger on it, was that glass there before? Was the door just like that? Was there a
smell? I decided I should start to take precautions. There were two ways into
the flat and I needed know if anyone came in while I was out. I put a tin can
behind the back door. If this moved, I would know that someone had been in.
I was on
a late shift that night and as I went through the gates into the yard, I bumped
into Tommy O’Neil.
“Here’s
your union card.” He handed over the
card and looking at me closely. “There’s
a funeral for one of our boys on Monday, I’d like you to be there.” I was taken aback, but managed to say, “I’ll
be there, is Johnny going?”
“Yes he
can pick you up at ten thirty.”
On the
Monday morning Johnny was at the door bang on time, and we walked to the stop
where the forty one bus would take us up Falls Road to Milltown cemetery.
As we
went along, he told me of the training which was to take place that
weekend. He knew that it was my long
weekend, so I would not need to take time off work.
We
arrived at the cemetery and walked past the Police Station, which was heavily
fortified with barbed wire and sand bags. You could clearly see RUC and army
officers photographing everyone one who entered.
In the
cemetery, a big crowd had gathered and we fell in with them. The cortège
meandered down the path, the family at the front weeping quietly as we all
gathered around the grave. We were at the back. A tricolour had been placed
over the coffin and as the body was lowered into the grave, I saw six men with
black balaclavas and green army styled jackets, line up next to the grave.
Suddenly they pulled out pistols and with one of them shouting out the time,
fired six shots into the air. Immediately the RUC tried to move in, grey Land
Rovers rolling down the path, to where we were milling around. The gunmen ran
down in the opposite direction and climbed quickly over the fence. Meanwhile
the men in the crowd blocked the road and were banging on the windows of the
vehicles, generally making things difficult for the RUC. Tempers were rising
and some of the men started throwing stones and branches which were lying under
the trees. The RUC started to pull back and then the army came down another
path with riot shields and batons. As the RUC retreated, we got braver, pushing
hard. It ended up as a stand off, with the RUC and the army outside the gates
and us just on the inside. Photographers had been running around most of the
time, largely ignored by the crowd, but snapping away. We didn’t know whether
they were press, army or IRA sympathizers and I didn’t care. I was close to
Johnny all the time. If anyone had asked who I was, I knew he would vouch for
me. There was great excitement amongst the men, we stood around and going over
the whole event. Everybody wanted to get to the pub for the wake, so the first
of the brave souls left and we saw them being allowed to leave, without any
retribution from the RUC. We followed them out and down the Falls Road to the
pub.
“Did you
see them run?” Johnny was full of himself.
We arrived at the pub, which was full to the brim with people ordering drinks
and recalling their part in the day’s action.
“What you
drinking?” Tommy O’Neil was getting the
order in. I was trying to remember as many faces as possible without looking
too obvious.
A man,
who Johnny referred to as Joe, was telling his tale. “Then did you see me hit that bastard with
that rock.” He was beaming and excited.
We listened to him telling the story, exaggerating the victory over the RUC and
army.
The pub
was now full and suddenly a big cheer went up. I could not see at first, but
six men were pushing through towards the bar. They were the six men who had
fired the salute at the graveside. They were being patted on the back, drinks
were set on the bar, the noise and excitement increased, songs were being sung,
stories of the deceased were being told and people got drunk. I was watching,
listening and making mental notes. I also had a shift on the buses that night.
Tuesday 2nd
May 1972.
The next
morning Johnny knocked on the door while I was reporting to Simon on the land
line. I had to quickly put the carpet down and hide the phone, to get to the
door.
“Have you
seen this?” He was holding out a copy of
Belfast Today. He pushed past me and went up the stairs. I followed.
The
headline read, “Mob protects gun men” and there on the front page was a picture
of Johnny and me, he was throwing something and I had a snarl on my face. I
didn’t remember snarling. The photographers had been from the press. Johnny was
delighted, I was wondering what Simon and Ellis will think of this.
In an
office back at barracks the radio operator listened and made notes. The wire
had been installed. That was the someone who had been in the flat.
“Look
at your face, you look as though you’re going to bite them.” Johnny was pointing at the picture of me.
“Aye, but
you’ll get lifted for that photo, not me.”
I quipped.
Johnny
sat and read parts of the report, reading out loud bits that vaguely had
anything to do with us.
“It says
‘the crowd at this point turned ugly.' They are talking about you.” He was like a child with a new toy. I put
the kettle on and made two cups of tea, he shouted through to the kitchen.
“Hey, it
says the wake went on until the early hours, you’re not joking, I never got
home until three in the morning.” He
tossed the paper down and leaned back.
“Come on,
let’s go for a game of pool.” I was on
the middle shift, so I had a few hours spare.
“I’ll
only thrash you.” I was trying to wind
him up.
“Fuck
you, I’ll play you for a pint and I’ll be pissed in an hour.” He stood up.
“You
always did get pissed easily.” Its part
of the game, make it important to the other player, so he tries too hard. I
picked up the cue case and put my coat on. There was a fine drizzle as we
walked to the club.
While we
were in the club, Johnny told me that we would be getting picked up on the
Friday at six thirty, for training.
At
Holywood barracks, in the large training room, Major Ellis was talking to all
ranks. There were detailed maps on the wall behind him.
“As you
know, sadly, we lost another man to One Shot Willy and we have to make finding
this man, a top priority. It could be there’s more than one man, but it’s
doubtful that they have more than one with these skills.” He glanced down at his notes.
“He’s
currently taking out a man every ten days, with a single shot to the head. His
average distance from target is two hundred and seventy five yards.” He looked
up.
“This is
very high calibre shooting, even with a specialist rifle and taking all things
into account, this man is a top notch marksman.” There was a murmur from the
men assembled, Ellis went on.
“We don’t
have much, but I will tell you this, we think that he’s been brought in from
abroad, probably East Germany or Poland and he works for money. Of course we
have to keep an open mind and it may turn out that they just have more than one
operator and they may be local.” Ellis
stopped to think for a moment.
“We do
have our ears to the ground and all intelligence on this subject is being
collated by Captain Lunn Special Forces.” He pointed over to Lunn. “If you have any information, no matter how
tenuous, you think may be linked to this problem, you must pass it through his
department.” He turned the page on his
notes.
“Now I
want to cover the riot involving the Para’s on Crumlin Road. I want to say that
they acted well within the rules of the yellow card....” He went on to other business.
Monday,
29th May 1972.
The rest
of the week passed by, my driver, Jerry was off ill and I was given a young
driver called Kerry Howell. We left late and arrived early on every trip, he
was throwing the bus around but he made up for that with his wit.
“I like my
girls to have a pulse and still be warm.”
He was girl mad. Often he would slow the bus down and open his window to
wolf whistle, even when we had a bus inspector on board.
“Hey
love, fancy a good time?” I started to
blush, but this easy going attitude with girls, was part of his life.
On my
last shift, before we went to the training with Johnny and the IRA, Kerry and I
were on the number twenty four route, which went from Dunmurry to the city. We
were waiting at the terminus for the return journey. Two of the loveliest young
girls got on the bus. Kerry had seen them and had come from the cab and to sit
in the back with me. He was chatting away.
“Where
are you two lovelies going then, on the town?’
They were enjoying the attention.
“None of
your business.” The older one replied,
but she still kept eye contact with Kerry, obviously wanting the conversation
to carry on. Kerry was not put out of his stride one bit.
“Well I’m
off tomorrow, if you would like a good time?”
He gave an easy smile, not taking his eyes off the girl. She was about
seventeen, purple mini skirt and her coat was even shorter.
“Do you
think we go out with any old man who asks?”
She was smiling; her friend and I were just watching this go on.
“Well do
you want a drink then?” Kerry kept
going; the girl looked at her friend, who took a sly glance over to me. I had
got what I thought was my best face on.
“Well
you’ll not get me drunk.” She was
defiant and started to lay down conditions. Kerry knew he’d scored.
“Would I
do that?” Kerry looked more roguish when
he was trying to look innocent, but everyone understood, that he would try and
she probably would get drunk. He now wanted to draw me and the other girl in. I
at this moment, remembered I had a date with the IRA.
“I’m
sorry I can’t come.” I didn’t want to
look like a party pooper, so added that I was going home to my mother’s for a
long weekend.
“Sure
your mum will let you out for once.”
Kerry felt as thought he was loosing it.
“Sorry,
she lives in Liverpool, I’m getting the ferry across and won’t be back until
Monday.” What could I say, if looks
could have killed, I would have been dead meat.
Kerry
tried to salvage something. “Me and you could go out?” He looked at the first girl.
“What me?
Go out with the likes of you, I’ve got a reputation to keep.” At this moment an old man got on the bus and
looked at his watch.
“I
thought I’d missed it,” he said.
“God look
at the time.” Kerry jumped up and left saying, “We’ll meet you at O’Donnell’s
at eight on Wednesday.”
The
journey back into town must have broken a speed record. Even though we picked
up a passenger at almost every stop, I never really had time to speak to the
girls again, but the young one smiled every time I passed. Later Kerry quizzed
me about the trip back.
“Did they
talk to you?”
“No, I
was busy.”
“So they
did not say they would not be there?”
“No.” I
was getting impatient with him.
“Where
did they get off?”
“Bedford
Street and they walked towards City Hall.”
At
the end of the shift I went to No. 37 and reported to Simon on the phone.
“Will you
be monitoring me?” I wanted to know whether I would be followed.
“No I’m
afraid you will be on your own, you’ll have to be very careful. If you want to
get out of this at any point, get yourself to a phone and we’ll pull you.” Simon knew this was a golden opportunity,
but that it was me taking the risks.
“Report
in as soon as you get back and don’t take any risks.” This was stating the obvious.
I slept
quite well considering and the next morning I just hung around the house,
trying to relax.
Friday 2nd June 1972. BBC News
Another British soldier
was shot today by a sniper in the Ballymurphy area of Belfast, whilst on foot
patrol……
Friday 2nd
June 1972.
“Have you
got a sleeping bag?” Johnny enquired as he came through the door.
“No, what
do you think I am, a Boy Scout?”
“You’ll
have to take a few blankets rolled up then.”
He went past me into the bed room and stripped off the only bedding I
had and made a neat roll, tying them with a belt. He looked down at the two
pillows on the floor, where I had been resting my head while reporting to
Simon.
“Have you
been sleeping on the floor?” I blushed.
“No I was
going to wash the sheets before we go.”
I picked the pillows up and placed them on the bed, I was not a good
liar.
“You also
need some warm clothes.” Johnny was
sitting on the bed and I was thinking that I didn't like him being too close to
the phone and I wanted him out of the bedroom.
“Hey
you’re like my mother, get the fuck out and make a cup of tea.” I pointed towards the kitchen. He went though
and put the kettle on.
I filled
my duffle bag with some clean socks and a warm pullover, collected a few things
from the bathroom and I was ready.
Johnny looked at his watch. “We’ve got twenty
minutes”.
I told
Johnny about the two girls and at the mention of Kerry’s name, I could see he
did not get on with him.
“Kerry’s
a lad, so he is.” But he didn’t mean
that, he meant he was a fucking proddy bastard, who got all the girls. I made a
mental note not to mention Kerry again.
It was
raining as we went to the pick up point. I was feeling self conscious about my
blanket roll, I felt like some carpet bagger.
We were
picked up by two men in a Ford Capri; we threw our stuff in the boot and were
on our way.
The
driver was about thirty years old, but the man who sat next to him was much
younger, barely eighteen. Johnny ran the conversation, “Hiya, this is Billy
Deery.” He pointed at me; I leant across
and shook their hands
“What’s
your name?” Johnny was looking at the
young man.
“Rory.” He did not give us his last name.
Johnny
knew the driver. “So Hugh, how are things?”
“Not so
bad, Johnny boy and yourself?” We were
heading out of town, and the windscreen wiper on the passenger side was all but
useless. As we left Belfast, I started to consider my position; it could have
turned into a full blown panic attack. Were these men were my execution squad?
Imagine if they had known all along who I was?
Were they going to take me to some dark corner of Ireland and leave me
dead?
The radio was on, I remained silent. I was
watching where we were going for one, and two I was starting to think too much.
After an hour and a half I sat up.
“Hugh,
can we stop for a piss?” I was not sure
I wanted to go to the toilet, but I sure needed some fresh air, he went on for
a further five minutes then pulled in.
It was
not a lay-by but there was cover. We got out of the car stretching our legs and
lighting up cigarettes, I walked into the trees. Now there were all sorts of
things running through my head and one was Simon saying not to take any risks.
I felt as though something was wrong, I didn't have any evidence, just a gut
feeling I was going to end up in a ditch.
My
experience so far was telling me that if I ran and they found me, that’s where
I’d be. If I stayed the course and they were who they said they were, then I
would gain some very valuable intelligence.
“Hey
Billy, what the fuck are you doing?” I
was brought back to the present by Johnny.
“Move
yourself, you’re not on your father’s yacht now.” He had a lovely way of saying things. I
trudged back to the car, not having the nerve to make a run for it. Needless to
say they gave a little cheer as we crossed the border. We arrived at our destination
about fifteen minutes later, driving along a very tight lane and going over a
hill to a farm.
I was
surprised at how many people there were at the training camp. We were met by an
old man, who checked us off his list.
“Just
park over there.” He pointed to where
four other cars were parked. We picked
up our bags and things and followed him to a barn. By now it was completely
dark, there were no lights at all, and only the old man had a torch. Inside
there was a single bulb lighting the whole barn. About a dozen men had already
taken the best sleeping places. Half the barn was stacked with bails of hay;
the other half had old tractors and bits of very old farm machinery lying
around.
“When
you’ve got yourselves sorted, there’s a meeting at eight in here.” He
disappeared into the dark.
Rory was
still outside trying to wipe cow shit off his boots.
I went
and got a bail of hay, dragging it over to where I planned to sleep. I cut the
rope and spread the hay level, then getting my blankets out, made my bed for
the weekend.
“You’ve
done this before.” Johnny was watching
and copying me.
“Aye a
regular Boy Scout that’s me.” I really
should not have looked so useful, but the army training kept kicking in.
“There’s
a pub not far from here, after the meeting I’m off for a pint.” Johnny smiled at the thought of it.
I knew
what sleeping rough was like and a few pints inside always helped. “Count me in. Does it have a pool table?”
“No, but
the music’s good and the landlord does not have a watch.”
One more
car arrived after us, but there was only the driver inside. He came in and
without saying anything, he set out his camp bed. He had a gas light and some
home comforts, a folding chair and the biggest chunky sleeping bag I’ve ever
seen.
Not long
after some men came into the barn. One young man called us all together.
“Get
yourselves over here.” We all gathered
at the other end and they did a roll call, very military.
“Right
you’re here for basic training, reveille is six thirty, you can get washed in
the farm and breakfast is in two stages.”
At this point he read out the names of those in the first and those in
the second shift for breakfast. Johnny was on the first and I was on the
second. I was not displeased about this, I would have more opportunity to look
around and make mental notes, remember names and faces.
The young
man continued and told us that we would be covering basic discipline, small
arms, organising riots and how to deal with the forces.
He then
introduced us to the other men who would be training us that weekend.
As soon
as the talk was over, Johnny said, “Come on, off to the pub.” We made sure everything was packed away.
There was not much light and Johnny tripped on
our way to the local. We arrived at the village, it was not really a village,
no more than a few houses but they had a pub. We stumbled in and were hit by
the warmth and light. You have to give it to the Irish; they are well blessed
with homely welcoming ale-houses
There
were quite a lot of people inside, dogs lying in the middle of the floor, a
heavy pall of smoke hung around and on one of the tables, a fiddle and a few
penny whistles. Some of the men from the farm had already beaten us down there. We got our pints and joined them.
“We’re
from Derry, Bogside.” The oldest man
said by way of an introduction. He was in his late twenties, with long dank
hair and that pinched mouth look that only poverty can bring.
“I’m
Johnny and that’s Billy.’ Johnny introduced both of us.
“John,
Pat and I’m Seamus.” He pointed out the
other two and they nodded.
Hugh and
Rory came into the bar and ordered pints, and we made room for them.
“You two
must have sprinted down here,” Hugh observed looking at Johnny and me.
“Hey,
we're not wasting drinking time.”
Johnny opened a pack of cards, “Anyone in for Crash?” He started to shuffle the cards. Soon the
musicians started playing over in the far corner. A guitarist and a small harp
player came in later during the evening.
We all rolled back to the farm late, stumbling and laughing, and fell
into our beds. I slept well.
Saturday
3rd June 1972.
The next
morning I could hear the rain falling, I did not want to get out of bed. The
lone man who was dressed like a hunter was up and dressed. All of his things
had been packed away.
A voice
in the gloom said, “Come on get yourselves up.”
I struggled out of bed and walked across the yard. In the bathroom,
there was only one cold water sink and the door was missing. I waited my turn,
decided against shaving, just rinsed my face and had a quick brush of the teeth
and I was out. While Johnny was at breakfast, I had a chance to study the last
man to arrive. He’d bedded down on the
other side of the barn. To my knowledge, he had not spoken to anyone. He was sitting
on his camp bed reading a paper backed book. He wore black boots, which tied a
long way up the leg, a camouflage jacket with a hood and dark trousers. His
watch was one of those big heavy duty things which could probably go down to a
hundred yards under water and tell you the time in every country of the world.
He was not very tall, but had an air of strength, confidence and looked very
sure footed. I was trying to work out why this man would be on basic training,
when Johnny came back from breakfast.
“Fucking
lovely,” he was smiling, “as much as you can eat, eggs, bacon, sausage and
every damn thing you could want, go on get yourself in.” Johnny jumped back onto his bed. I went off,
but I noticed that the quiet man, the Hunter, did not come in.
It was
like the monkeys’ tea party, people grabbing tea and toast and generally making
pigs of themselves.
“Yes I’ll
have another slice of toast if you don’t mind,” announced one of the men who
had eaten the most. I was glad to get out of there, but not until I had taken a
very good look at every face at the table. I still had a job to do.
The rain
was easing off as we paraded, although 'parade' would be too strong a word. We
stood in two lines with three men out in the front. The Hunter stood off to the
left, smoking a cigarette, his hood up, he was becoming interesting.
“OK, we
are going to break you up into three groups of six and in that way, you’ll
circulate from one area to another over here in the big barn. We’ll be doing
tactics. Out here, we’ll be marching and practising parade stuff.” He pointed
to the yard.
Parade stuff?
I nearly burst out laughing.
“Over
that hill to the left, about half a mile, we’ll be using the guns and
things.” Johnny and I were put in the
barn for the first part of our training and the young man, who had done most of
the organizing, led us there.
“Hi, I’m
Noel Dougal; I’m the adjutant of ‘D’ company.
I want to take you through the tactics of resistance. We have to be
organized, we have to be disciplined and above all we have to be smarter than
the Loyalists and the army.”
Dougal
delivered a great two hour lecture. He was young, but he was passionate,
intelligent and dedicated and he definitely motivated the men in our group.
“Remember,
be smart - use the situation to your advantage and don’t take stupid
risks.” He looked at us and stood up.
“Has anybody got any questions?”
I wanted
a cup of tea and didn’t want a long question and answer session to make it hard
going. The rest must have felt that way too, because when one daft sod asked,
“Do we get identity cards?” Johnny gave him a swift clatter on the back of the
head.
We all
strolled out of the barn and as we rounded the end, the other group was
standing to attention. The rain was that type of drizzle that soaks you through
before you realize. We went straight into the kitchen, there was a bit of a
fight to be first to the tea urn, so that we could get a good seat next to the
stove. I was at the front and sat next to the window, just the right distance
from the fire, and lit a cigarette.
“So if
you’ve got your ID and the army pull you over, do you just show him your pass
and go on your way?” Johnny was taking
the piss out of the daft lad, who blushed.
The lad
tried to defend his stupid remark. “I
meant so that we could prove to other members that we were on the same side.”
“For fuck
sake,” Johnny kept up the attack, “just turn out your pockets son, next thing
you know you’ll be in The Maidstone eating gruel.” Johnny took a long drag on his cigarette, he
was feeling pleased with himself. At this moment the men who had been doing
foot drill poured through the door, there was a mad rush for the teas and as
they sat down and made themselves comfortable, Johnny started to recount the
story of the ID card to them. To our
surprise, the young lad jumped up and gave Johnny a punch to the face. For a
moment I thought Johnny was just going to take it, but in an instant, Johnny
was up and at him. Most people in the kitchen didn’t know what was going on. As
they both fell to ground, Johnny was on top and the other men were trying to
pull them apart. Eventually, and not before Johnny had given the lad a head
butt, they managed to separate them. In this incident, Johnny showed his killer
instinct. He had had that look a man
gets, when no matter how large or small the insult, something snaps.
I always
do the same thing when men fight around me, hold my pint or tea out of the way
and wait to see who’s going to win, this was no exception. It could have been
interesting, a big strong lad against this wiry little psychopath! But the fight was stopped. I took Johnny
outside, with him declaring that he would have killed the bastard. I knew he
would have.
“Come on,
save it for the army, we don’t want to be fighting amongst
ourselves." He was still flushed
from the fight and had a trace of blood in the corner of his mouth, from the
first blow.
“I hope
he doesn't stand in front of me, when I've got a gun.” I remembered that we would be having the
experience of small arms later.
“Calm
down, he’s just a boy.”
“Well the
fucker started it and I’ll finish it.”
That threatening look came over Johnny’s face again.
At this
point, the men who had been over the hill, doing small arms, came into the yard
carrying an assortment of weapons. One of them held a Tommy gun, which must
have been forty years old. They were smiling and joking.
The
Hunter was at the back carrying a rifle and a green case, he looked just the
part. The men stacked the guns on a ground sheet, just inside the first room
and piled in to get their tea.
I went
back in with them. The lad was nursing himself in the corner.
At the
end of the break, Noel Dougal asked us to line up in two ranks.
“I’m
sorry, but some of us have to go, there’s trouble at Derry and we have to be
there, the prods are marching.” Dougal
added, “If anybody wants to come with us, they’d be welcome.”
Dougal
turned and made his way into the farm house.
Johnny
turned to Hugh and Rory, who were in the same transport as us. “Well do you fancy it?”
Hugh, the
driver said, “I’m going.” The excitement
was tangible. Men were hurrying back to the barn. We went in and packed our
things. I noticed the Hunter sitting on his bed, carefully cleaning his rifle,
a Lee Enfield with telescopic sights. It didn’t look as though he was going
anywhere.
Within a
few minutes we were packed and making our way to the car. Noel Dougal came
across to talk to us.
“You’ll
have to come into the city from the north, the army have road blocks all over
the place.” Hugh got out an old map and
they poured over it while we sat in the car. It had started to rain and the
inside of it had one of those wet dog smells. With the directions sorted, Hugh
tried to start the car, but there was just a clicking sound when he turned the
key.
“Fuck,
come on, get out and push.” We leapt out
and started to push the car back across the farm yard, a few more men came
across to help. It started on the second bump, we were on our way.
We
travelled north, with the radio on. Reception was a bit poor in that area, so
it took a while to find anything out, but what we did hear sounded like big
news. The main story was that a land mine had killed two soldiers in an attack
at Rosslea. We all gave a cheer. I found it hard, but nobody seemed to notice.
Rory was
map reading and Johnny and I were in the back, chain smoking.
We
entered the city and almost immediately came to a road block. I just knew we
would get pulled over. Well what could you expect; we were four men of the
right age group. The soldier pointed to a side alley, which we pulled into.
Several soldiers immediately started to look under the car with mirrors. Hugh
wound down the window and a young soldier leaned in.
“Where
are you going?” Hugh handed over his
license.
“We’re
off for Saturday lunch with my sister.”
This went right over the top of the soldier’s head.
“Can we
see in the boot?” The traffic was
starting to build up and the soldier was in a hurry. Hugh jumped out and opened
the boot. The soldier had a quick glance, pushing a few of the bags around.
“OK sir.”
We were on our way.
“We need
to get parked up soon. We can walk from
here.”
Hugh
seemed to know his way around. I had only been to Derry once with Simon. We
pulled off the main road, parked up and started to walk towards the city center. As we walked along we talked excitedly about the events which were about to unfold.
“We can
kick fuck out of them prods.” Rory was
expressing what the others were thinking.
“Come on
down this road.” Hugh lead the way, we walked through blocks of flats, through
the maze of alleyways, eventually arriving at a street of small terrace houses.
He knocked gently on the door, eventually it opened slowly.
“Hugh
Dolan, what are you doing here?” The man
who opened the door came into the street and started to shake Hugh’s hand. He
had a big smile on his face.
He nodded
in our direction. “Who’s this lot?”
“We’re
here to see the prods off, they’re marching sometime today. That’s Billy,
Johnny and Rory. Rory’s dad is Jacky
Docherty. Remember he worked at the factory on Antrim Road in the early
sixty’s. The man looked at Rory. “Oh yes
I remember him, always singing at the top of his voice.” Rory smiled, recognizing the description of
his father.
“Boys,
this is Seamus.” Seamus smiled.
“Come in,
come in.” We were waved through the door
into the smallest front room I had ever seen, somehow they had managed to fit
two large sofas and a small table into the room. The place had a damp smell and
had obviously not been decorated for decades.
“Mary,
put the kettle on.” Seamus called to his
wife in the kitchen. He was about fifty and had dirty, grey hair. There was no
collar on his shirt and his braces had lost most of the elasticity and had been
adjusted to take this into account. We squeezed into the seats and made
ourselves as comfortable as we could.
“Are you
working now?” Rory enquired.
“Hell no,
there’s no jobs here for the likes of us.”
He looked to us for sympathy and we nodded knowingly. “But the Prods
walk into a job anytime they want.”
At this
moment Mary came in, carrying a pot of tea and a plate with biscuits, she
returned quickly with the cups and milk and sugar.
“Could
you put the three o’clock news on the radio?”
Rory asked. I noticed then that
they had no television. In fact there was precious little, except the sofas, in
the room. The radio was switched on as Mary poured the tea and we helped
ourselves to sugar and milk.
On the
hour, the bleeps told us it was time for the news.
“Shush,
Shush, listen.” We all stopped talking.
“The
marchers will be leaving the Irish street area of Derry at about three o’clock.
They are protesting about the No-go areas in the Bogside and Creggan. William
Craig has spoken these words “We are no longer protesting, we are demanding
action.”
We
started to talk over the broadcast on the radio.
“Well
that’ll get the bastard re-elected.”
Seamus’s face had a look of disgust, we all had sympathised with
him.
Rory jumped
up. “Come on, let’s get at them.” I
bolted my tea down and grabbed a handful of biscuits and before I knew it, we
were making our way round the city walls.
As we got
closer to the bridge, we saw the army were all over the place, every street
corner had men with full riot gear and weapons at the ready. There were
armoured vehicles with men on high alert, sitting inside. We came down Aberckon
Road and could see that they had fenced off the bridge at both ends with barbed
wire and a six foot fence. Nobody was going over that bridge today. I was
relieved, Johnny was disappointed.
“Let the
fuckers come.” Johnny was joining in
with the rest of the crowd.
The army
had put a roadblock of barbed wire and fencing at the junction of Harding
Street and Aberckon Road but we all pushed as close as we could. Soldiers were
facing us and we cursed and goaded them. The press were taking photographs of
everything that happened.
Suddenly
a bottle was thrown by someone at the back of the crowd towards the army. At
first it looked as though they wouldn't respond, but they were waiting until
two Land Rovers with half a squad of men were in place behind us. They marched
up towards us, close to the temporary fence. We were spitting and bad mouthing
them. Then they pulled the barricade to one side and charged and at the same
time a snatch squad jumped out of the Land Rovers and was baton charging from
the back.
It had
the right effect; we were running everywhere to get away from the soldiers, who
were using their batons indiscriminately. I stumbled on the corner of the
pavement and went down like a ton of bricks, catching my right eyebrow on the
ground. My biggest fear was to be trampled under foot, while I was down, still
dazed from the knock on my head. The soldiers passed me by, but as people fled,
the soldiers re-grouped and came my way again. I stood up and blood was pouring
down my face, two squaddies lifted me up, pulled my arms around my back and
marched me off through the barrier. I was aware that some of the protesters were trying to stop them from arresting me, but the soldiers closed ranks and I
was quickly through the barrier, but not before the press had taken some fairly
good pictures of me covered in blood being choked by an arm around my neck.
There was
a big temptation to shout “I’m on your side.”
Then I was in the back of a Pig with two squaddies sitting on top of me
and another holding a loaded gun to my head. The Pig was hammering up the hill
to God knows where. The driver knew, but I didn't. The Pig swung into a yard
full of Army vehicles. I was dragged out and rushed into what turned out to be
part of the library.
“What’s
your name boy?” I was being questioned
by a corporal from the military police, at the end of an aisle in the library.
“William
Deery.”
“Address?”
“37 Mount
Pottinger Street, Belfast.”
“Date of
birth?”
“11th
December 1951.”
“What are
you doing here?”
“I was
minding my own business, when you lot picked me up.”
He leaned
forward and snarled, “Shut the fuck up, we’ve got witnesses who say you were
the fucker who was throwing bottles. I’m probably going to do you for grievous
bodily harm.” He stepped up close, but
he didn’t know that better people than him had breathed their bad breath over
me and I had been threatened by better men than him.
“You were
handed over to me covered in blood, no one will notice a bit more.”
I didn’t
flinch. He stormed off.
“Keep an
eye on that twat.” I stood in the aisle, while he went off to check my details.
I had a chance to check myself over. The blood had stopped running down my
face, but I had a nasty cut above my right eye and this had a swollen and felt
puffy to it. Someone had stood on my left leg while I was down and they were
trying to escape from the soldiers in the initial charge. All in all, I felt rough.
I leaned
against the wall at the end of the aisle, resting and thinking of the events of
the last few days. I was exhausted. When the military policeman came back his
attitude had completely changed, he was carrying a cup of tea and a chair.
“Sorry
mate.” He placed the seat down and
handed the tea to me.
“They're
sending someone to see you.” I looked at
him to see if he knew what was going on.
“Who’s
that?” I asked suspiciously, staying in
character.
“Dunno
mate, but the word has come down to look after you.” He started to walk away.
“I‘ll get
someone to clean you up, give me ten minutes.”
And with that he was gone.
The tea
was hot and sweet and I sat there having a smoke and just resting, the toil of
leading a double life had at last caught up with me. I reflected on what I had
been first directive, just observe from the bus what was going on in the city.
That was my only task. How things had changed.
After
thirty minutes a medic set about washing and bandaging my head.
“How’s
that?” he inquired, standing back to survey his efforts. He had been very careful, only two butterfly
stitches and some liniment on my leg.
“The
bandage will need changing in two days, so go and see your doctor.”
He
thought I had a doctor, my documents were with the M.O. in Germany, I had
better get that sorted, I thought.
After a
while a Captain from the Fusiliers came down the aisle.
“They're
sending someone from Belfast to see you, do you want a rest?” He didn't know what my status was but he knew I was important and people in high places wanted me to be kept safe.
“Yes
please.” I kept the accent going, but I
was beginning to relax.
“Could I
have something to eat?”
After
steak and kidney pudding, chips and several cups of tea, I was taken through
the library and up the stairs into an office, where there was a lone camp bed
for me.
“Get some
rest.” The officer disappeared and in
the warmth and safety of that office, I soon dropped off.
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